Why should I keep you here? You only want me because you want a place to live… The only thing you look forward to is the weekends so you can met him… The phone calls from him is the only thing that makes you happy, atleast, that’s the way it looks. Fuck it, show me why the fuck I should be nice to you at all!

Could it be that am I the bad one, but can’t see it?

Why do I crave the attention? She treats me like a brick wall, it’s there, but don’t talk to it or about it, it’s just there. Why do I want her attention that bad? Feelings is a very weird thing.

I like you. I love you. But I’d also like to say: Fuck off and leave me alone. I don’t need to take your crap.

I want to help you, I am helping you and I will help you in the future, but it would be nice if you could show some kind of appreciation towards me. A simple thank you would do just perfect.

I’ve lost my best friend because we don’t hang out or even speak anymore, I’ve known him since I was around 9 or 10 years old, 11 years of friendship just thrown out over nothing. My other best friend which I run a business with doesn’t respond very well to anything I say anymore, like I’m not a part of his life anymore. Why can’t people tell me if they don’t like me, or if there’s anything wrong at all. I don’t like this silence, like I’m dust you can brush under the mat and just forget about.

Why is it so hard for people to tell me what they really feel? I dislike attacking them to get an answer. I respect any answer, ’cause an answer is a lot better than no answer at all.

Or is just that I’m crap at having a relation to someone? Is there anyone out that actually sees me?

I miss people, but they don’t seem to miss me.

A while ago I visited a friend in another country, which was quite spontaneous and fun at the beginning, but it took a rather nasty turn later that night when we went out. It was fun, atleast I had fun, until we met some guy she apparently had some thing for. It didn’t take long before I was just the third wheel, a burden on her shoulders. But why do people ask me to come visit if they don’t really want it? It wasn’t all bad though, we met one of her friends, which was very nice and very cute, shame I won’t see her again.

I don’t think I’m the demanding type, I don’t care if you don’t care about my birthday and what not, but a simple hello once in a while would be very welcome.